another part of me died todae..

inside me..
slowly but surely..
im dying a lil each dae
when will it all end?..
when will i die completely..

let me sleep tonite and not wake up tm..
drowned in my tears..
pls...

when u cry so much there's no more tears left.. juz unbearable pain..
neverending
trembling
weak

I can't remember the last time that we kissed goodbye
All our "I love you's" were just not enough to survive
Something your eyes never told me
But it's only now too plain to see
Brilliant disguise when you hold me
And I'm free

I've been thinking and here's what I've come to conclude
Sometimes the distance is more than two people can use
But how could I have known girl
It was time and not space you would need
Darling tonight I could hold you and you would know
But would you believe

There's a light in your eyes that I used to see
There's a place in your heart where I used to be
Was I wrong to assume that you were waiting for me
There's a light in your eyes
Did you leave that light burning for me

Cards and phone calls and photograph pictures of you
Constant reminder of all the things you get used to
Is there a chance in hell or heaven
That there's still something here to build on
Or do you just pick up the pieces after they fall
But after all

There's a light in your eyes that I used to see
And a song in the words that you spoke to me
Was I wrong to believe in your melody
There's a light in your eyes
Did you leave that light burning for me

Should I keep on waiting or does love keep on fading away Fading away

It's been a while since I've seen you so how have you been
Did you get my letter I wrote you, but I did not send
I tried to call your old number
But the voice that I heard on the phone
I recognized but she told me the number was wrong

There's a light in my eyes but it's too bright to see
And a pain in my heart where you used to be
Guess I was wrong to assume that you were waiting here for me
There's a light in your eyes
Did you leave that light burning for me

Blessid Union of Souls--> Light in Your Eyes

You are Architecture.
You are the most functional art form and rarely do
anything without some practical purpose.
Although you are capable of easilly outstaging
the other arts, you usually prefer to go
unnoticed.


What form of art are you?
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i lost my hp todae... on the mrt..
so blur.. like sotong..
dun even rem how when where i lost it..

shld haf seen my grief stricken face..
thank u farah fer the hug..
thank u linyen fer saying "lets all curse the person whu took it"
thank u shawn fer the pat on my shoulder.. although i haf no idea how that would help but.. oh well...

but.. but.. but...
"hey, my name is ziqing.. from cck sec.. i got ur hp.. had to off it juz now cuz taking my exams.. sorrie ur fren muz haf been worried sick.."
*triple starjump backfilp".. wateva that is..
imagine me doin that in the mid of my geopolitics lect..
oh well.. bless u ziqing..
see charmaine..? i told u that everyone's basically kind and good in nature...
lost my hp 6 times.. 1st time i got it back..!!

im sick... again
feeling sorrie fer myself..
why do i always get sick?.. sucha weakling..
exam stress.. sick
caught in the rain.. sick
not enuff sleep.. sick
air-con too cold.. sick
stuck in a crowded place.. sick

my throat hurts, my head feels heavy my nose is ruuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuunnnnnnnnnnnnning...
how to study??... therefore.. dun study loh
yay! the onli silver lining.. dun need to study!

la la la...

do i realli mean tat little to u...?
u dun even give a damn whether im angry w u or not..
3 lines.. tat was all u replied to my 4 msgs...
thanx alot..
always the saint arent u?
never ure fault...

u said u din sae it was my fault...
okie.. accepted..
but still.. does that give u the right to treat me like crap?
reason---> ure hurting too..
okie accepted..
so what?!
here see it frm my view..
because of ure decision, i cry myself to sleep everynite...
but okie i accept it, i console myself w ur assurances.. all those wonderful promises of being there fer me still, caring fer me.. true friendship.. i honestly do appreciate them.
but then out of the blue.. WHAM!
"i dun feel lik doin anetin anemore.." "im hurting too okie.." "i dun think i shld do that anemore.."
punctuated w angry accusing fingerpointing at me remarks... Suddenly its MY fault ure hurting..? i din even blame u fer me hurting.. its like getting slapped rite bac in the face fer trying to help...
no.. seriously.. tell me.. wat exactly did i do to deserve this sort of treatment..?
all those things u claim i did that hurt u.. i didnt do them..
i didnt..
repeat---> didnt!!!!
U blaming me.. fer sumthing i didnt do.. while making the decision to hurt both of us and conveniently make it my fault oso...
ENOUGH!!!....
no more.. pls..

lame excuses.. pathetic reasons.. shameless denial.. vomit inducing self-righteousness..
what else?.. wat else u wanna throw at me..
do it lah.. afterall.. wat's another night of crying fer sumone whu dun even give a damn..
whats new..

how stupid can i get..
an idiot waiting fer 3 more years.. willingly..

Cried myself to sleep again last nite...
when's it gonna stop...
when will i be happy?...
waiting fer the 3 years...

welcome to my life it says...

chaotic schizoprenic materialistic narcissistic
cuddly furry spoilt drooling
open introverted extroverted insecure
snob bitch hyporcrite party animal
listener whiner comforter supporter
lost waiting wanting denied
blur bimbotic clueless shy
lazy artsy sporty pushover

true false wrong rite yes no maybe....
ur fren..