I Wished...
11:18 AM
Monday, November 08, 2004
do i realli mean tat little to u...?
u dun even give a damn whether im angry w u or not..
3 lines.. tat was all u replied to my 4 msgs...
thanx alot..
always the saint arent u?
never ure fault...
u said u din sae it was my fault...
okie.. accepted..
but still.. does that give u the right to treat me like crap?
reason---> ure hurting too..
okie accepted..
so what?!
here see it frm my view..
because of ure decision, i cry myself to sleep everynite...
but okie i accept it, i console myself w ur assurances.. all those wonderful promises of being there fer me still, caring fer me.. true friendship.. i honestly do appreciate them.
but then out of the blue.. WHAM!
"i dun feel lik doin anetin anemore.." "im hurting too okie.." "i dun think i shld do that anemore.."
punctuated w angry accusing fingerpointing at me remarks... Suddenly its MY fault ure hurting..? i din even blame u fer me hurting.. its like getting slapped rite bac in the face fer trying to help...
no.. seriously.. tell me.. wat exactly did i do to deserve this sort of treatment..?
all those things u claim i did that hurt u.. i didnt do them..
i didnt..
repeat---> didnt!!!!
U blaming me.. fer sumthing i didnt do.. while making the decision to hurt both of us and conveniently make it my fault oso...
ENOUGH!!!....
no more.. pls..
lame excuses.. pathetic reasons.. shameless denial.. vomit inducing self-righteousness..
what else?.. wat else u wanna throw at me..
do it lah.. afterall.. wat's another night of crying fer sumone whu dun even give a damn..
whats new..
how stupid can i get..
an idiot waiting fer 3 more years.. willingly..
