back from SWAPS FOC 2005..
sad.. and happy all in one..
a truely unforgetable experience.. one of a kind
wouldnt exchange it fer any other things..

all the small lil things that happened..
the progballers meetings..
the comm meetings..
the preparation.. the actual carrying out of the programs..
the team spirit.. the colorful personalities i met..
truely truely priceless..

im realli glad i decided to do this..
gotten so much outta this experience..
both good and bad..
but im glad it happened anewaes..
it was special.. and truely truely unforgetable..
how many people actually get to experience something like that the way i did..
to all PROGBALLERS.. THANK YOU FER EVERYTHING..
the laughter, the tears, the fustration, the STRESS, the inside jokes.. and most of all the comradry.. it was a special experience cuz u guys are special..

so... afta 4 tiring, stressful, unforgetable daes with a combined total of 15hours of sleep in these 4 daes.. im back home..
complaining about some things.. but overall contented on how things turned out..
although i still feel trepidation at things to come.. worried about some unhappy issues.. and bothered by some senseless people (AKA bitches and assholes) still..im nonetheless happy to plop down on my comfy, bedsheeted, clean bed with a proper pillow and blankie.. sigh.. home.

haha...
the following is like prove that quizzes are mostly bullshit..
unless there's something i dun noe about..
oh well..
if they're gonna write 300 words about your personality
im sure 1 or 2 sentences are going to sound like what u are.. or at least what u wanna be..fer me.. think the bad parts are more true than the good part
not hard to want believe something when its all sugar and spice huh?!
haha.. i oso wich these tests are true..
still.. its good entertainment la la la~

You Are From the Sun

Of all your friends, you're the shining star. You're dramatic - loving attention and the spotlight. You're a totally entertainer and the life of the party. Watch out! The Sun can be stubborn, demanding, and flirty. Overall, you're a great leader and great friend. The very best!

Your Birthdate: December 14

With a birthday on the 14th of the month (5 energy) you are inclined to work well with people and enjoy them. You are talented and versatile, very good at presenting ideas, and you are also very good at organization and systematizing. You may have a tendency to get itchy feet at times and need change and travel. You tend to be very progressive, imaginative and adaptable. Your mind is quick, clever and analytical. A restlessness in your nature may make you a bit impatient and easily bored with routine, and rebel against it. You have a tendency to shirk responsibility.

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.

You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic.

Your ideal relationship is comforting. You crave a relationship where you always feel warmth and love.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage something you've always wanted... though you haven't really thought about it.

In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

Slow and Steady

Your friends see you as painstaking and fussy. They see you as very cautious, extremely careful, a slow and steady plodder. It'd really surprise them if you ever did something impulsively or on the spur of the moment. They expect you to examine everything carefully from every angle and then usually decide against it.

rockband wannabes! 

awws... frens 

the weirdest entertainment quadret alive! 

dun mind the idiotic pose.. caught off guard 

A K S C 

comfy comfy! 

retarded part 2 

retarded part 1 

royalties! 

how to sqeeze! 

-back by popular demand!-

haha..
been a hectic week...

juz came back from mm night trial run
dead tired.. and on a short fuse.. no reason in particular.. juz in a BF mood.
gyming and mahjong yesterdae with shiyun and charchar..
feels gr8 to work out.. ooh and had wonderful crab after..
wednesdae bridged with amelia sy and char..
shopping, neoprint bonanza and then finale bridge..
tues tanned with joanna and sheryl..
horrible sunburn!! i never had such bad sunburn!!
im itching at all the weirdest places.. gross!!
imagine scratching ur chest in public.. weird rite..
mondae.. finally went to sign up fer basic theory.. and gymed.

busy weekend ahead..
shopping w mum, grace's party, vermillion's party.
sunday sup to rest and recharge but how come i find myself wantin to haf progballs meeting?
oh.. did i mention that we're in deep shit?!
or so i see it lah.. haiz.. stress..
nuthing is done!

wow.. i updated my whole week in one post..
wat a way to save time..
this is so much easier!
wheeeeee....

[CAUTION]
-neoprint bonanza ahead!-

omg......!!
i cant believe i scored as legally blonde..
i hate when i prove charmaine right..
grrr..
and that whole cheerleader thingy..
its onli cuz im unique and dun fit into any of thoses stereotypes k..
oh pls.. as if u can imagine me going
"gimme a R gimme an O gimme a X gimme a Y..wadaya get? roxy!!"
hmm..okie.. on 2nd thought
dun ans that question..
grrr...

You scored as Legally Blonde. Youre the ultimate girlie girl, what can i say! Legally Blonde 92% Charlies Angels 83% The Notebook 75% A Cinderella Story 42% Mean Girls 33% What Chick Flick is just like Your Life? created with QuizFarm.com

You scored as Prep/Jock/Cheerleader. Prep/Jock/Cheerleader 81% Punk/Rebel 63% Ghetto gangsta 63% Loner 56% Goth 50% Drama nerd 31% Stoner 19% Geek 19% What's Your High School Stereotype? created with QuizFarm.com

so fer the last time..
im NOT a BIMBO..
la la la... *twirls hair*

Your IQ Is 105

Your Logical Intelligence is Above Average Your Verbal Intelligence is Genius Your Mathematical Intelligence is Above Average Your General Knowledge is Average

sentosa trial
went better than expected i guess..
yes i noe my group's route was easy..
but we still took 5hrs ++
gotta cut down on some games i guess..
that dae started bad thou..
some pple.. grrrr...
nvm..

mahjonged with janet huili and char..
damn kiasu all of us
pple play 20 cents already like dman small..
we play 5 cents can...
and i lost 70cents in total..
phew..
addicted to mahjong..
everytime i hang out with these 3 gals we pig out..
and the next dae im one size bigger..
and trust me.. there arent many sizes left fer me to get bigger..
u gals are bad fer me..

finally signed up fer basic theory todae..
FINALLY!
got my procrastinating arse up..
and its one heavy arse k..

and i actually went to the gym afta that w char..
300 calories lost!! *jumps around*
then i ate tako pachi and one sugar roll *jumps down from building*
anewaes.. according to the gym's weighing scale.. char's 25 kg..
and guess wat.. my weight was normal..
char.. pls go eat shit and die..
still the world is fair..
we measure our height.. mine was correct 165.5
which means the scale has ABSOLUTELY accurate.
which also means.... char is officially 153!!!! wahaha..
which juz means u shrunk and not lost weight... i insist!
bleah.. na ni na ni poo poo..

people are a complicated lot..
i give up..

i love staying at home..
juz slacking the dae away..
lazing at home.. playing w dumdum..
lying on the couch.. watching tv..
feeling soooooo contented with life..
juz taking in everything around me
recharging.. i feel so rested now
sigh...

bad dae.. sad sad dae..
i was in a realli good mood the last few daes..
happy with my life and everything going on in it..
contented and glad evrything turned out well..

but like every other stage of my life..
when ever i start to feel this way..
juz starting to let myself believe that life is not that bad..
something or rather things will come along and spoil it all fer me..
bring me crashing back to reality..
when will i ever learn..
its not my place to be happy..

i trusted u..
i defended u..
i cared about u..
i treated u as a real fren..
and i onli do that fer very few people..
i let my guard down around u..
and u betrayed my trust..
u proved right everything they said i should be wary of..
i dun hate u.. i hate myself fer trusting u..
and it hurts so much wat u did..
realli realli hurt.. that's all i felt when i found out

but im happy i did..
it hurts now..
but it will go away and i will get better..
it will fade and i will forget

what goes round comes round..
i feel sorry fer u..
cuz wat u did to all those of ur "frens"
its gonna come back tenfold to u someday..
and ure gonna be surprised and wonder what u did to deserve this..
cuz i honestly do not think u hurt us on purpose..
its juz in ur character to be like this..
and ure even ignorant about it..
thinking ure an angel to all ur frens..
then wondering aloud why they leave u and why they feel insecure around u.
wondering why u have so little real frens who stick by u..
why, eventually they all drop like flies..
never once thinking that the problem may ACTUALLY lie with u..
realize that most pple onli remain ur fren when they dun know u that well or long enuff
now.. why IS that?..hmmm...
wake up gal.. the world isnt all about YOU..

im no angel..
but i never said i was one..
and i certainly never dressed myself up as one in front of people..
i never BELIEVED i was goody goody..
and im glad im not!
cuz then.. i wun be able to sae all this..
at least i noe the meaning of FRIENDS..
i guess "angels" have no idea what that fucking means huh?
have a nice life..

shagged..
suddenly like 24hrs a dae is not enuff..
one minute is bright and sunny and farking hot 11am in the late morning..
the next.. its close to 1am and im making my way back home..
feeling so guilty towards my mum..
and my baby bobo..

wasnt that long b4 when i had to think about wat to do to fill up my dae..
ask people out..
blah blah..
until i got sick of it and stop trying.. and i was contented to just slack at home..
but now..
so furnie.. things always happen when u least expect it
i din even realized it until recently...
and guess wat.. its not wat i want..
i'd much rather slack happily at home..
la la la~

trial run tom..
batam sundae..
let me get thru this 2 things first pls..


oh yah!! new puppy fer me soon!! i hope..!
im gonna name this bundle of joy BAMBI..
so its bobo and bibi!!
the elephant and the deer..
its gonna be one helluva zoo rite here!
ooh.. i juz rhymed.. la la la~