bad dae.. sad sad dae..
i was in a realli good mood the last few daes..
happy with my life and everything going on in it..
contented and glad evrything turned out well..

but like every other stage of my life..
when ever i start to feel this way..
juz starting to let myself believe that life is not that bad..
something or rather things will come along and spoil it all fer me..
bring me crashing back to reality..
when will i ever learn..
its not my place to be happy..

i trusted u..
i defended u..
i cared about u..
i treated u as a real fren..
and i onli do that fer very few people..
i let my guard down around u..
and u betrayed my trust..
u proved right everything they said i should be wary of..
i dun hate u.. i hate myself fer trusting u..
and it hurts so much wat u did..
realli realli hurt.. that's all i felt when i found out

but im happy i did..
it hurts now..
but it will go away and i will get better..
it will fade and i will forget

what goes round comes round..
i feel sorry fer u..
cuz wat u did to all those of ur "frens"
its gonna come back tenfold to u someday..
and ure gonna be surprised and wonder what u did to deserve this..
cuz i honestly do not think u hurt us on purpose..
its juz in ur character to be like this..
and ure even ignorant about it..
thinking ure an angel to all ur frens..
then wondering aloud why they leave u and why they feel insecure around u.
wondering why u have so little real frens who stick by u..
why, eventually they all drop like flies..
never once thinking that the problem may ACTUALLY lie with u..
realize that most pple onli remain ur fren when they dun know u that well or long enuff
now.. why IS that?..hmmm...
wake up gal.. the world isnt all about YOU..

im no angel..
but i never said i was one..
and i certainly never dressed myself up as one in front of people..
i never BELIEVED i was goody goody..
and im glad im not!
cuz then.. i wun be able to sae all this..
at least i noe the meaning of FRIENDS..
i guess "angels" have no idea what that fucking means huh?
have a nice life..