hmmmm...

internal AGM on fridae...
was it juz me or was it alil dramatic?
im happy w the pple filling the top posts..
but im not sure about the rest..
still feel that they shld hav co-opted b4 the internal agm..
so the posts can be filled w more suitable pple..
oh well.. that's juz me.
and suprisingly.. i AM worried abt the coming year fer SWAPS.
was a lil burnt out by the end of my term that i din realli care wat was going on..
but during the internal i felt worried fer the 19th comm..
not a single 18th comm person in it..
and i definately felt sad that my term has came to an end..
its been a winderful one year w SWAPS
and i wldnt haf exchanged it fer ANETIN in the world..
ive learnt so much and gained so much.

hmm.. ANEWAES..
thursdae night ames came to stay over afta the hall cca recruitment thingy.
the recruitment thingy went suprisingly well btw..
yunnie had to go fer a play so i was left alone in hall..
not very often that happens.. haha
but once again the pple in KE7 proved themselves to be realli friendly and sociable..
brings me to another point which i shall not tok abt here..
note to self: call charmaine to whine.

oh yah.. back to ames staying over..
we ordered MAC's supper 67773777..
woohoo.. SHIOK.
then me ames and yunnie watched the boogeyman..
and those 2 mamaface ended up screaming and grabbing each other's hands ina totally unglam fashion.
excuse me.. an innocent passerby wld haf been severely freaked by ur screams loh.
AND THEN.. the 2 aunties wanted to go pee..
my gosh.. im laffing to myslef juz thinking abt wat happened next.
ames screamed.. ran out of the cubicle in a VERY auntie fashion.. and dashed out the door..
at the same time i got freaked by her sudden dash fer life scene and run out the door oso..
why?! the freaking toilet bowl was overflowing with shit filled water..
okie.. that's definately the epitome of GROSS..
im not kidding.. the water had SHIT in it.. excrement.. sewage.. human waste.. dung..
then in the confusion yunnie came out of the toilet.. saw us running towards the door
and she followed suit..
failing to wash her hands.. haha.

hahahahhahhaahhaahhaahaha..
hahahahahaahhahhaahahahaha...
those 2 aunties..

--i dunnoe wat to think anemore.. ultimate confusion--

insomia..
cant seem to fall asleep..
yunnie and ames snoring next to me..
each on one side..
help me pls..

4.43 am.
thinking of staying up till 7am
then can go fer breakfast..
ames called me greedy ..
bitch.

todae.. was... good..
surprisingly.

-- i noe i shldnt.. but i want to.. and u make it worse.--

woohoo..
nicole kidman is HOT HOT HOT...
im in love..
okie.. that sounded so secondary school..
wateva.

im so proud of myself..
i actually was 20mins early fer my 8am lect!!
i did not fall asleep.
and i even went fer 3101 lect alone..
tried to keep awake..
but all that tok abt MARX is totally sleep inducing man..
then went fer 2101 tutorial..
ZIMBARDO is a freak.. haha.
i SURVIVED 6hrs str8 classes..
they shld haf a medal fer such things..
haha

went w ames to visit chat todae..
that poor gal..
so sick man..
then ames fell sick too..
u 2 muz do EVERYTHING together hor..

highlight of the dae..
went out with huili janet and mich..
caught bewitched and ate at cafe cartel..
once again.. not suprisingly.. ordered too much.
ate until my stomach felt like it was goin to burst..
literally.. it was scary..
eating at 9+ 10 again..
weird dinner time..
i had fun..! it was nice..

got a call on the way home..
"hey u noe wat to do tom rite?"
me: "eh.. no?"
"u noe ur the vball capt rite?"
me: "eh.. no?"
i din think it was confirmed lah..
and afta IBG it seemed that there were sooo many others whu were much more suitable
like can play better and everything..
im totally not up to being capt of a team again..
especially a volleyball team
im totally lousy can.. and lazy.. never bothered to realli learn the foundation
but i'll try..
kinda scary thou..
feeling apprehensive i would sae..
having the experience of being a capt once is enuff to last u fer a lifetime..
wat's happening man.. totally confused.

--getting mixed signals,
wat's wrong w u bitch--

argh...
juz realised that the stupid stats2 project group hafta ownself go and find then submit..
totally no kaki in tutorial..
like yah there are pple i noe..
but they already like one group already mah..
super paiseh to chap in ..
fishcake banana chop..
nvm.

oooh.. netball was good....
like super tiring.. but feels good to play la.

i was supa antisocial to sumone todae..
im NOT being dao or stuck up
i juz dun like to socialise or be frenly w pple i dun realli noe..
its not you its me..
shy can?!

charmaine my dearest fren is sick..
she actually took a cab back home frm sch todae..
she must be DAMN BLOODY sick to part w that money!
haha..
and can warn first b4 u off ur hp.
i tot u were angry or sumthing.. or like kenna knock down by bus.
anewaes.. pls take ur medicine.. and drink more water.
hugs.

ohhh.. HAPPY 20th birthdae jiabo!!
dun always make excuses to stare and touch my assets pls..
hehe.
u owe me $30 btw *wink.

--not feeling it much anemore.. GO AWAY!!
no wait.. DUN GO AWAY!!--

it feels good to spend time at home..
to wake up with dumdum staring up at me asking fer a tummy rub.
to juz chill and watch SCV..!!
to hang out w my mum and fight over the remote control..
realli enjoy the time i spend at home nowadaes..
minus the mopping and vacumning the floor part.. bleah

charmaine..
I WILL HELP U..
dun be sian anemore..
hehe. luv ya lots!!

eeeeeyyyyyuuucccks!!!
school tom..
stats 2 tutorial.. double yucks
still got sc3101 tutorial.. puke.
cant imagine why i have been looking fer ward to sch juz 2 weeks ago..-read previous posts
but the first 2 weeks haf been fun thou..
seeing familliar faces..
eye candies.. *giggleS*
juniors..
and a few of those im shocked to see in NUS..
slack lect..
skipped most..
but now gotta at least pretend to feel guilty if i skip ane..
gross..

dreading school tom..
life's realli not too good now..
and i dunnoe why.. pms-ing maybe?
it irritates me that i dunnoe why..
juz nuthing to look ferward to at all i guess..

wat i want to do.
buy a fan (blurdy hot in hall)
a mattress
curtains
mini vacumm
printer
fer my hall
when will i ever get my procrastinating arse up to get them done.
i want to watch the maid and bewitched
watching the latter w huili janet and mich.. that's a start.
i wan to go shopping.. like REAL shopping...
with pple whu actualli want to shop oso and actually wld BUY stuff.
print my notes..
dun even haf one proper set til now.
hmm.. that's all i can think off now..
getting sian already cuz i noe i prolly wun get to do ane of them..

--wat's wrong??!!--

--im exhausted..
and very tired to trying to second guess ur every move..
i give up..--

SWAPS AGM yest..
kinda dramatic..
but wat i want to sae cannot be said here..
and honestly.. i realli dun give a damn anemore..
wat matters most is that SWAPS is NOT SPLITTING..
to those of u out there.. NA NI NA NI POO POO... bleah..

left agm halfway fer IBG..
played w blister and swollen finger..
but it was fun.. and worth it.
rushed back to AGM.. and realise onli 9pple were nominated..
NON FROM THE PREVIOUS COMM..
wat the FFFFFFF...!!
ok.. i oso dunwan to run..
but the more invovled pple shld run mah..
kinda sad that most of the previous comm pple cant realli be bothered.
we care about swaps. but to run again? no thanx..
well.. i'll juz hope fer the best.
feeling realli sad thou.. ah well..

sigh.. tutorial starting next week..
feeling overwhelmed already..
especially fer stats..
dun noe aneone taking the same tutorial w me..
sumore hafta do project..

feeling shagged even b4 all the work comes in..
how to be mugger.. haha
did sumthing realli stupid..
me ad char.. happy happy go to lib print 3 chapters frm this book fer sc2101..
then afta buying th textbook realised that those 3 chapters are provided..
sumore so proud of ourselves fer being hardworking..
oh well.. we tried.

life is not so good now..

hmm..
played handball fer the first time on weds..
super rough sport.. like basketball..
dun like such rough sports..
spoils my manicure..
haha

afta 2 games of handball and 3 sets of volleyball with little rest in between..
im suffering frm body ache from head to toe.. and i MEAN head to toe and everything in between..
never knew mt knuckles cld swell up like that..
accident frm handball..
cuz my middle finger to sprain..
and noe i got a legitimate reason to sae big fuck 24/7
get it? swollen middle finger? nvm..

but it was realli realli fun ..
playing w the gals..
we lacked in numbers but hopefully made it up w spirit?
haha.. blisters and cuts on my toes are making me walk furnie..
so vain lah.. nv cut toenails.. cuz juz got a pedicure..
then after handball got cuts cuz nails too long.. haha
oh well.. realli hope to play netball later.. but got AGM..
see how lah.. hope we dun walkover like soccer..
ah ... i realli like women's soccer..
oh.. and i seriously think the people here r amazingly nice..
and i dun usually think pple are nice..
weird..


--hmmm.. everytime i start to think "maybe?"..
sumthing comes along that make me go "definately not"...--

im quite sure i do..
im think i do
maybe i do..
hmm.. actually im not sure..
maybe i dun?
i think i dun..
aiyah.. i confirm dun..

confused? yah me too..

ok.. arts bash wasnt that bad..
the music was actually quite good!
and the pageant standards were good..
ask char and ames..
haha

severely lack of sleep..
skipped 2 lects todae... argh!!
im sup to be mugging!! wat the hell..

ooh.. i PASSED MY ADVANCE THEORY..!! wheeee...
was so irritated w the touch screen.. had to enter my freaking password 6 bloody times!
and the 2 guys sitting beside me failed..
and i din finish reading the book..
but halfway thru i tot the test was suprisingly easy.. haha
and ames tips which she told me while i was half asleep helped!
haha.. la la la~ im happy!

ooh.. and i bought 2 goldfishes..
named them char aka SGH and ames aka AMP..
haha.. u noe and i noe y..
so CUTE!!..
now i got sum OTHER form of entertainment besides my super no reception TV..

its been a fun 3 daes in hall...
basketball ibg.. tried hockey but my back injury will kill me..
vollayball later.. netball fridae but i got AGM.. oh yah.. hafta settle the FnB..
haha..

ames stayed over mondae..
watched 2 super antique 20 years ago chinese vampire show..
damn damn furnie..
quote of that night--
liu zhe shuang shou zai, bu pa mei nai ji.
go figure.. haha
oh yah.. ames looking sexy in my topshop jeans huh.. lol

n last night arts bash..
then a lil bit of bridge..
im seriously in need of sum good proper sleep..
ive got eye bags..
i NEVER haf eyebags..
NEVER..
now they're like the size of char's cheeks.. kill me now
opps..

wow~ she asked..
*beams*

hmm...
HMM..
hmmmm.....

crap.
now im REALLI confused.

im confused...
there are sumthings i wanna sae..
but i noe i cant sae it here..
fer the greater good..

no.. charmaine.. its not u..
if its u i will juz bitch openly..
we all noe that.. so juz to let u noe and put u outta ur misery..

nobody noes.

WACKYS chalet.. fer the LEO babies!! yun ames and weilan!! 

the 2 masked babes! 

the masketeers and our food!! 

one of the dares.. shiyun licking ames ear.. both look in pain.. hahaha 

that's me.. and my dare.. licking char's ARSE 

wow.. never knew they cld look THIS good. keep the mask on pls haha 

the mask of WacKyS? 

our un cooked food... thats like half of it.. and there were onli 6 of us!! 

our chefs fer the earlier part of the dae... 

the hot gals and the hot food.. haha 

our chefs fer the night.. (explains the burnt food) 

yv enjoying her chicken wing... yummy! 

all our cooked food.. too much cannot finish 

scratchy scratchy.. mamaface using a satay stick to satisfy her itch.. 

burnt mashmellows!! i ate that okie! 

1st week of sch...
hmm.. was.. FUN!!!
slack lah.. lectures were ok and super unimportant..
which is good..

oh and staying in hall is starting to be funner!!
can feel the freedom and independence i so deperately need..
oh.. and can wake up later and still be on time fer my 8am lect..
like first time ever!

and on that subject..
poor ame had to sit thru my 8am stats lect w me and worse still..
had to do the stupid pop quiz .. haha
felt realli bad about that..
and the fact that she got scared by my flowing hair in the middle of the night.. hahaha..

clubbing with ur 2nd dae supa heavy flow crams filled period is soooooo not advisable..
danced fer 3hrs str8 under that condition.. totally unglam..
but kenna forced by some mamaface and her darling ...
and how they repaid my kindness?!?!
by imitating the way i dance in a super untrue unrealistic and totally unglam fashion..
no more nites at taihoe fer u 2.. PUI!

oooh.. signed up fer 5 block games..
and afta badminton at pgp yest i feel like signing up fer that too..
oh well.. i DO need the excercise..
so exciting...

let's see wat else.. oo0oh ooh!
birkenstocks at tanglin mall called todae!
they finally got stock fer my pair of shoes..
been trying to get that design fer ages..
cant wait fer mondae!! la la la~

i wan to change my blogskin..
its so not me now..
but im too lazy..
lazy lazy lazy..

GLAMOUR SWAPS dnd 2005..!!
woot..!!
last nite was fun..
dressing up and all..
like when will i ever get a legitimate reason to wear a black lacy cheongsam man..
but the dressing was sooo hectic...
morning rush there do decor..
then ruch out get some accessories..
then rush back put make up and dress up..
so unglam (ironic) in the toilet..
i climbed on the sink to put my eyeliner..
and i think juliana took a pic of that..
gal.. u better burn that!

but the eveing was still tremendously fun nontheless..
the pageant esp..
cheered fer yvette until our throat got hoarse..
WACKYS bought a bouquet of flowers fer her..
and in the end it was ALL WORTH IT...
MISS Yvette Lai.. is MISS SWAPS 2005!!..
woohoo...
anewas good job pageant contestants..
this year one got standard man..
haha drooling at all the bods..

the mood was soooo promish..
taking pictures and all..
but it was one helluva fun and memorable night..
we got a good table!! haha..
and thank you linyen and char and huanjie fer all the work put into decor..
i must sae that im proud of our work.. haha

afta the dnd went over to tai hoe hotel..
stayed over at the ex-co room with char and ame..
yunnie, yvette and weilan abandoned us haflway.. boo!
so furnie.. ex-co nobody stay over.. so sad..
but we had a fun time three-soming!!
supper and all..
char's muturbak soup.. ame's ENORMOUS roti john. and my scrumptous indian rojak..
oh yah.. leaking bandung too!!
u wunder how come we can be sooo greedy afta a 8 course chinese banquet dinner.. haha
the hotel was sucha sex hotel..
like we're a few streeets away from desker rd lah..
haha.. and the blankie smelt furnie.. gross..
and cuz of one of char's lousy suggestion.. i had to sleep w/o shorts on..
so uncomfy!!

haha.. oh well.. back to school tom..
finally!!
been one helluva fun hols thou..
luved almost every minute of it..
but i want to start mugging now..!!
haha... rem. i wanna be a nerd and bookworm when sch starts..
remind me char!!

im home!!
im home im home im home..
actually ive been home since yest. but i was too shagged to blog..

moved into hall on mondae.. din intend to stay over..
din noe got sorta Oweek this week..
ended up having to stay on mondae waking up at 4am to sell flag fer 16hrs till 8pm..
honestly i was like damn sian diao..
last year i was laffing at those pple wearing red selling flags..
then this year.. retribution..
BUT... suprisingly i enjoyed it..
it was heartwarming that pple donated so generously..
the macdonald's uncle even gave me discount fer our hardwork..
plus the company was not too bad i muz sae..
all thanx to shiyun..
if it was juz me there i will so totally keep quiet and be antisocial..
but shiyun.. wat can i sae.. social butterfly. haha

hmmm.. Ke7 is soooo not wat i expected..
the place... better then i expected..
ok lah.. room quite big.. and toilet not THAT gross wat.. light spoil onli..
and i LURVE the location of my room..
one word.. perfect..
but the first nite was still hell..
i cried and cried cuz i was sooooo homesick man...
i missed my mum.. my bed.. my baby dumbo..

tuesday.. came back frm flag.. feeling alot better at hall
ame char came over to bridge..
audrey and san mao came over oso..
the company was very welcome..
familliar faces helped alot..
THANK YOU char and ame.. fer the preety pink and sparkly book..
although i tot u 2 were making out in my room that's why u chase me out.. haha
it was a reallli sweet suprise..
even with the gross AH-MA panties drawing and all..
its reali reali furnie.. and reading it is gonna help me thru those lonely nights in the hall..

hmm.. afta 3 daes in KE..
got a better view of the hall and its pple..
the culture there is definately sumthing im gonna get alot of getting used to..
juz not the usual ARTS kinda thing that im more familliar with..
the pple are all generally nice.. most reaali nice..
but some are a little weird.. and hard to grasp?.. maybe its juz me..
esp afta the cheer practice on weds...
was kinda shocked at the way it took place..
yep.. i heArd some furnie stories about it b4 but i din realli take it seriously lah..

wat i found suprising..
we had to stand in neat rows and in a very formal uprite position..
all the camps i been too and even as a programmer fer this year's FOC..
i never ever cheered like that b4..
felt so.. alien.. so awkward.. so i dunnoe.. sian?
nobody smiled..there was no spontaniety.. no genuine enthusiam..
felt more like shouting then cheering..
of cuz.. i guess the most blame goes to the us.. the "freshman" thou im a senior but yep..
we were pathetically soft.. absolutely no ra-ra-ness..
and i did feel realy bad fer the pple cheering on stage..
i would be supa disappointed and pissed if i were them..
and i realli did wan to try to cheer loudly fer them.. but it din help that i din noe the words (one run thru is not enuff leh.. i damn STM one loh) and the atmosphere was realli sombre..
and one thing.. i tot the army officer feirce scolding thingy by a certain guy where he used the FUCK word on us was ABSOLUTELY uneccessary..
in my opinion he still owes all of us an apology..
but that's juz me.. maybe thats the way they do things there..
but honestly.. if we;re already soft and sian b4 he said that..
i think scolding us more esp w that word is hardly gonna make us wanna cheer more lah..
i dunnoe.. their idea of cheering is soo different from wat im used too.. oh well..

but still.. afta the cheer session i did honesty feel like i wanna be there fer rag.. like contribute..
but i haf my SWAPS dnd obligations to fufill.. and i suprised i actually feel dissapointed
fer all of u whu havent heard it yet (not many).. i always tot that rag and flag was stupid..
since i was a freshman.. i total waste of time..
afta mondae i tot flag was not so stupid afta all..
and afta seeing all the effort put into the float and their hardwork (i noticed the dance room outside ALWAYS got shoes one loh 24/7) and the cheer seesion, i no longer think its stupid.
infact.. their dedication and skills and truely admirable..
i was juz an ignorant idiot..
GOOD LUCK.. hopefully wat happened fer flag will happen fer rag too..

i moved into hall w realli unsettled feelings..
stressed to hafta participate actively.. cuz apparently thats the point in hall.. and if u dun u can jolly well scram to pgp..
and afta 3 daes even more stressed.. haha..
because i noe i can never leave my mum alone at home fer more then 3 daes in a row..
i noe i wun be able to stay over in hall as often as is expected..
i hafta be with my mum.. not juz cuz im homesick.. cuz its my obligation to my mum..
cuz she needs me more then hall does..
and i already noe.. i'll choose my mum over anething..
no matter wat..
i hate it that my dad is not around..
i hate it that he made this MY responsibility..
i hate to think about it..
and i hate it that i hafta..

oh wow.. i actually blogged about my past 3 daes..
wow.. this is helluva update man..
it juz flowed..
everything i tot but had no one to tell it to the past 3 daes..
phew.. felt good to get it off my chest..
oh yah.. hall food is good! suprise suprise!