im home!!
im home im home im home..
actually ive been home since yest. but i was too shagged to blog..

moved into hall on mondae.. din intend to stay over..
din noe got sorta Oweek this week..
ended up having to stay on mondae waking up at 4am to sell flag fer 16hrs till 8pm..
honestly i was like damn sian diao..
last year i was laffing at those pple wearing red selling flags..
then this year.. retribution..
BUT... suprisingly i enjoyed it..
it was heartwarming that pple donated so generously..
the macdonald's uncle even gave me discount fer our hardwork..
plus the company was not too bad i muz sae..
all thanx to shiyun..
if it was juz me there i will so totally keep quiet and be antisocial..
but shiyun.. wat can i sae.. social butterfly. haha

hmmm.. Ke7 is soooo not wat i expected..
the place... better then i expected..
ok lah.. room quite big.. and toilet not THAT gross wat.. light spoil onli..
and i LURVE the location of my room..
one word.. perfect..
but the first nite was still hell..
i cried and cried cuz i was sooooo homesick man...
i missed my mum.. my bed.. my baby dumbo..

tuesday.. came back frm flag.. feeling alot better at hall
ame char came over to bridge..
audrey and san mao came over oso..
the company was very welcome..
familliar faces helped alot..
THANK YOU char and ame.. fer the preety pink and sparkly book..
although i tot u 2 were making out in my room that's why u chase me out.. haha
it was a reallli sweet suprise..
even with the gross AH-MA panties drawing and all..
its reali reali furnie.. and reading it is gonna help me thru those lonely nights in the hall..

hmm.. afta 3 daes in KE..
got a better view of the hall and its pple..
the culture there is definately sumthing im gonna get alot of getting used to..
juz not the usual ARTS kinda thing that im more familliar with..
the pple are all generally nice.. most reaali nice..
but some are a little weird.. and hard to grasp?.. maybe its juz me..
esp afta the cheer practice on weds...
was kinda shocked at the way it took place..
yep.. i heArd some furnie stories about it b4 but i din realli take it seriously lah..

wat i found suprising..
we had to stand in neat rows and in a very formal uprite position..
all the camps i been too and even as a programmer fer this year's FOC..
i never ever cheered like that b4..
felt so.. alien.. so awkward.. so i dunnoe.. sian?
nobody smiled..there was no spontaniety.. no genuine enthusiam..
felt more like shouting then cheering..
of cuz.. i guess the most blame goes to the us.. the "freshman" thou im a senior but yep..
we were pathetically soft.. absolutely no ra-ra-ness..
and i did feel realy bad fer the pple cheering on stage..
i would be supa disappointed and pissed if i were them..
and i realli did wan to try to cheer loudly fer them.. but it din help that i din noe the words (one run thru is not enuff leh.. i damn STM one loh) and the atmosphere was realli sombre..
and one thing.. i tot the army officer feirce scolding thingy by a certain guy where he used the FUCK word on us was ABSOLUTELY uneccessary..
in my opinion he still owes all of us an apology..
but that's juz me.. maybe thats the way they do things there..
but honestly.. if we;re already soft and sian b4 he said that..
i think scolding us more esp w that word is hardly gonna make us wanna cheer more lah..
i dunnoe.. their idea of cheering is soo different from wat im used too.. oh well..

but still.. afta the cheer session i did honesty feel like i wanna be there fer rag.. like contribute..
but i haf my SWAPS dnd obligations to fufill.. and i suprised i actually feel dissapointed
fer all of u whu havent heard it yet (not many).. i always tot that rag and flag was stupid..
since i was a freshman.. i total waste of time..
afta mondae i tot flag was not so stupid afta all..
and afta seeing all the effort put into the float and their hardwork (i noticed the dance room outside ALWAYS got shoes one loh 24/7) and the cheer seesion, i no longer think its stupid.
infact.. their dedication and skills and truely admirable..
i was juz an ignorant idiot..
GOOD LUCK.. hopefully wat happened fer flag will happen fer rag too..

i moved into hall w realli unsettled feelings..
stressed to hafta participate actively.. cuz apparently thats the point in hall.. and if u dun u can jolly well scram to pgp..
and afta 3 daes even more stressed.. haha..
because i noe i can never leave my mum alone at home fer more then 3 daes in a row..
i noe i wun be able to stay over in hall as often as is expected..
i hafta be with my mum.. not juz cuz im homesick.. cuz its my obligation to my mum..
cuz she needs me more then hall does..
and i already noe.. i'll choose my mum over anething..
no matter wat..
i hate it that my dad is not around..
i hate it that he made this MY responsibility..
i hate to think about it..
and i hate it that i hafta..

oh wow.. i actually blogged about my past 3 daes..
wow.. this is helluva update man..
it juz flowed..
everything i tot but had no one to tell it to the past 3 daes..
phew.. felt good to get it off my chest..
oh yah.. hall food is good! suprise suprise!