i hope..
at least i can sae that i hope..

everything came crashing down on me in 12 hrs..
EVERYTHING...
i dunnoe wat to beleive in anemore..
i dunnoe wat to think.. how to act..
and i dunnoe how to feel.. anething besides pain and hopelessness..
im an expert at that.

everything that gave meaning to my life..
the onli thing i tot i existed fer..
is lost..
i dunwan to.. but everything's different.
eveything's change.

and being the stupid fucked up shit that i am..
im still hoping..
becuz i wan to believe u.. i realli do..

-- wat happens when ure so consumed by pain and hopelessness 24/7, that u cant feel anething else?--
-- where do i go frm here?--