seems like everytime i start to blog i go " so many things haf happened in the past few daes"
but its true..
so many things HAF happened in the past few daes..

and i wanted, needed to blog..
but fer the past 2 daes my bloordy comp decided to not connect online..
it said "error 676 phoneline busy"
erm.. i dun HAF a working phone at home.
the one that's not working is not even connected to the telephone point..
my laptop has a life of its own i tell..
and it decided to take MC fer the past 2 daes.
then todae it magically connected fer me again..

but.. i dunnoe wat to blog anemore..
cuz many of those things are over now..
the moment has passed.
its been a horrible 2 daes..
insomia, loss of appetite, depressed fer no apparent reason, anxious at small meaningless things.
i sound like im readingthe symtoms of a person w adjustment disorder w mixed depression and axiety mood disorder, right out of my abnormal psych textbook.
i can be juz watching some sitcom on tv and i will juz start to tear and cry..
and i DUNNOE WHY..
okie.. i guess i cld think of a few reasons why..
some things that happened over the past 2 weeks..
but i dun think its nuthing i cannot deal with..
ive dealt w worse b4 wat..
i concluded that it is the accumalation of EVERYTHING.. past and present.

but im getting better now..
slowly building up that wall again..
im surprised it took so long actually.
and im suprised that i got sooooo affected by certain things.
but im gradually getting better..
it doesnt hurt so much anemore.
and a really BIG THANK U to my frens whu haf shown their concern fer me during this period.
it reali reali helped noeing that u guys care.
esp THANK U char, pei, janet, ame and yun.
im not okie.. but i'll be soon. hopefully.

so hopefully.. no more drama mama bouts of bawling and depression
but back to simple plain ol boring kim
i realli rather be a bimbo than to think too much.
and ive thought enuff this 2 weeks...
my brain needs a break.
ignorance IS bliss... i knew that i juz fergot.

i wan to be able to blog brainlessly again..
stupid incoherent posts.
about stupid frivolous stuff..
juz to become normal again..
i dun ask fer happy.. juz not unhappy.
pls?

--i dun wan to care anemore. and i dun noe why i did.--