this morn..
i forced myself to wake up at 7.29am
made myself go fer stats 2 lect.

in the lect, justina asked me how come i nv pick up my hp/ when she scalled to ask if i wanted anything frm Mac's.
cheryl asked if i received her sms this morning.
i didnt..
and when i tried to find my hp to check.. i cldnt.
but i din think anething.. afterall, my hp was still ringing wat, justina said.
but i distinctly rem taking it and putting in my bag.. oh well.. i thought.

then afta lect char called justina.
i picked up, and she screamed.. WHY THE HELL IS UR HP OFF?!
things juz got worse from there.

i realised that somehow i had lost my hp..
even thou i did not take it out of my bag fer ane reason at all the whole morning.
so.. hi frens, i lost my hp.. again.. fer the 2nd or is it 3rd time this year?
rem buying my juz lost hp juz afta the CNY.
hmm.. has been 6 mths even?!

u cld sae im used to losing my hp...
but this time i was realli devastated.
the photos.. bambi dumdum and all..
and the phone nos and info.. which i complacently saved in my hp, being to lazy to jot it down.
im totally lost now..
TOTALLY..

thank heavens fer char..
i half ran frm the bus terminal back to my hall room
the moment i stepped into my room
i cldnt stop the tears from flowing..
i suprised myself even by all the bawling.
its juz a bloody fone..
but it signified so much more.
i cldnt feel any better even afta char's repeated consoling..
but thank u fren..
realli..

wat am i gonna tell me dad..
and i realli needed my hp this week.
i hate this feeling.
i hate it that im sooooo careless.

so fer another reason..plus the fact that i lost my hp.
i cried alot todae lah..
i noe.. i need to grow up..

but it realli realli sucks..
so much.
and i realli realli feel like crap.
u juz cant get used to losing ur hp..