Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I'm forced to fake a smile, a laugh
Everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you
I'll never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of youI learned to play on the safe side So I don't get hurt
Because of you I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of youI tried my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid
Because of you Because of you

-- when will the tears stop coming --

recently.. i felt lucky..
fer awhile.
fer sumthings.. fer sum people.
i saw that others arent having a ball either..
people i care abt.
and i felt so stupid fer being so self absorbed in my own stupid lil problems.
when a fren was in need..
more than i was.

but right now.
i realized that im the one that's truely alone.

i dun haf a right to feel sorrie fer aneone.
i cant even find myself.

its not juz abt u.. (although a huge part of it is)
its not juz abt u either..
and its not juz abt u..
or u.. and u.

its abt ALL OF U..
everything..
and its abt ME.

if there's even a me anemore..
its abt this whole god damn excuse fer a life ive been living..
it shld never haf been in the first place..
why shld it be ane different now?

NONE OF U GET IT.

-- HOPE. cherish it. realize its not a given. --