i noe why i had that feeling of dread and doom.
cuz deep down inside i knew it was a sooner or later thing..
things will nv be alright..
it will nv go back to b4..
i will nv smile like b4 again.

i was right..
although it was fun being in denial fer 1.5 weeks.
but it finally became too apparent fer me to ignore.
im an idiot.
i realli am..
time and time again.
i NEVER learn.

when will i finally get it that u'll nv change.
ure just like that.
and it disgusts me to the core.
YOU sicken me.
but i cant help gettin affected by u.
why am i sucha IDIOT.?!

what do u get out of this?
why do u do it?
i dun understand.
i realli dun.
i juz wanna noe WHY.

seriously, how do u live w urself.
im no saint.
but wat u are is juz sadistic.
and worse of all..
ure a master at acting as though nuthing's wrong.
shirking all respondsibilities.
GROW UP.. be a human being fer once.
im not the first to hafta go thru this cuz of u.
it cant be ALL of us can it?!
think abt it u sick bitch.

right now.. i dun even noe if im hurt furious or juz plain disgusted.
i think its all 3 plus more.
i cant even think str8 cuz of all this horrible emotions.
i cant live right..

i hope its worth it fer u.
dun regret it.

-- stop thinking abt ur own fucking narcissistic self fer once and see that other pple haf feelings too.--

-- face it fer once.. stop making me pay fer ur own bloody mistakes--

-- as i noe it, everything is already a lie. juz sae sumthing, mean it and stick to it. 2 faced bastard--