im juz trying to leave this 3 weeks behind me..
TRYING.. that's the key word.

i think if i can ever put this behind me..
and walk out of this without losing myself
i now i'll be a better, stronger more mature person.

i learnt so much abt myself..
and alot of it suprised me..
i oso learnt alot abt u.. and abt us..
it suprised me too.. but im not sure i like wat i see.

i juz wan this to be over..
fer things to return to normal..
i juz wan to be able to smile again..

but fer now..
it still bloordy hurts like fuck..
and i dun even noe wat to do abt it..
cuz there's nuthing i can do.. it all up to u.
pls pls pls... try not to hurt me anemore.
dun be an asshole.. to sumone u sae gives meaning to ur life.
cuz one dae.. when it all gets too much
and when i can no longer help myself.. i will give up.. not on u, but on myself.

--why cant i stop being a fucking idiot--