im so so tired..
its not true that when there's a will there's a way..
i believe i had the will.. to keep on trying.. fer so long.. but i dun see any way.
now im juz so so tired and exhausted..
its beyond my will to control anemore..
its beyond me to even try to deal w the pain..
and when it happens.. and i NOE it will happen..
i'll b e helpless.. cuz i dun hav the means anemore to defend myself in anyway
do u noe that feeling? the fear.. hw intense it is..
the fear of noeing that the pain will take over me and i cant do anetin abt it but juz to feel it.. feel in in its full extent.. noeing nuthing can make it go away.t
but im realli too tired to try..
if i stop.. will u cont to try?

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I open my eyes
I try to see but I'm blinded by the white light
I can't remember how
I can't remember why
I'm lying here tonight
And I can't stand the pain
And I can't make it go away
No I can't stand the pain

How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes I've got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

Everybody's screaming
I try to make a sound but no one hears me
I'm slipping off the edge
I'm hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again
So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered
And I can't explain what happened
And I can't erase the things that I've done
No I can't

How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I've got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream

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--will u rem wat u promised me?--