i dun think i like what i see...
im not happy with the situation.
i dun think i wan things to be like that.
BUT... im not even sure if what i think is what realli is.
and that's where the dissonance comes in.

what's worse is that it could have been different.
and i could have done.. or actually not done sumthings to make it different.
its realli not my fault.. although it was within my control..
actually u noe wat.. it wasnt.
i already did wat was within my control.
im not the bitch.. not this time.
and it feels pretty darn bad to get blamed fer sumthing i DIDNT do.

yes.. ure right.
it could be worse..
i could actually have CARED abt the person.
and how the person saw me..
its a good thing that i dun..
but it still sucks..

with the exams coming i realli shldt be bothered by such frivolous things..
but this beats dwelling on other not so frivolous stuff that will give me a headache of the millenium.
i guess i rather be perturbed then be in a sobbing fit.
BE HAPPY KIM..!!

-- am i supposed to be thankful?!.. cuz i sure as hell am NOT.--