seriously..
u dunnoe me.
u dunnoe me either.

none of u get it.

how can u when i dun even get it myself.
but its getting better now.
im starting to understand more.
working it out in my mind.
its less complicated.
and im starting to see it.

im not wat i look like i am..
well.. maybe juz a lil.
ive stop hoping to be happy.
but i still want to haf some fun once in awhile.
juz plain ol harmless fun.
im weird.. i think? but then again, whu's normal.
but there's definately alot of my thinking that most pple dun get..
or.. they juz think otherwise.. and assume that's how i would think too.
dun get it?.. wat's new.

most of u dun agree w me..
i think u do. or at least u try to.
and that's good..
i like that abt u..
but i dun expect it.. neither do i expect u to continue agreeing w it no matter wat.

this sem haf been realli amazing..
like realli realli amazing.
ive been the lowest ive ever been..
and right now im still recovering from that.
but SO MANY things haf happened.
some im okie w... some im not.
some im used to.. some i have problem believing up til now.
some affect me, ALOT.. some SHOULD affect, but im not.
wow.. did i juz rhymed?

ive matured and grown so much..
but onli to find out that i havent changed at all actually.

its weird.. i noe.
im just still realli confused abt the big pic.
but individually.. i noe wat i feel abt all of u.
juz that i cant reconcile them.
some i dunnoe how i feel.. but i honestly do not care.
not yet at least.

anyhow.. my pet phrase now has gotta be "i dunnoe".

-- am i ever gonna be alright? --