i feel so god damn lost...

why do things hafta be like this?
whu's the monster now?
will it ever be over?
will it ever be the same?
are they talking about me?
was that sarcasm?
does she noe?
does she care?
wat are u not telling me?
is that a knife stuck in my back?
when did it become my fault?
are u for real?
... ... ... ...

onli thing i got outta this is knowing how it feels to be misunderstood, overlooked, abandoned, lied to, betrayed, backstabbed.

hey, im not totally innocent either. but im sincerely sorrie. u haf no idea..
a million "if only-s"...
counterfactual thinking sprinkled w a ton of regrets.
not just wat i didnt do or wat i did..
but wat other pple didnt do and did..
did i mention life sucks?... oh yah i did..
life sucks x 1million.. --> meant to sound angsty.

im not okie.. stop asking.
just smile be nice, gimme some money and be on ur way...
okie im joking... dun nid to smile

-- nobody's perfect --