im an emotional wreck..
and its ure fault

the onli thing that surpasses how much i care abt u and how much u mean to me
is my hatred fer u.

how dare u.
its been long enuff.
wat have u done.

how do u live guilt free.
u deserve to suffer.

strong words ya.. but i dun think ive ever mean them more than i do now.
im not even agitated.
im calm and ive tot thru alot.
and those are wat i truely feel
as much i tried so hard not to feel them
afta wat u did
its inevitable
and i wan u to live w it.

afta last night i told myself that i need to stop getting affected by it
stop being so emotional
stop sitting there feeling sorry fer myself
stop crying
stop thinking that im the victim
juz snap out of my pathetic state.
and get on w life.. detached.

but by this morning u had to do wat u do best again
i dun stand a chance.

i hate all the this..
im exhausted.
but wat can do.
with u.. i always lose.

stop it.. juz stop. pls.

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