okie.. seriously?.. life's realli getting me down.
yes yes
i need to stop whining
and get on w it
grow up.

but couple that w the fact that i hated turning 20 and then 21
why the hell shld i grow up
once again the angsty need to get pissed drunk and pass out

argh..
i need to get my new years resolutions out
it worked for me last year
but the calm barely lasted a year
better then nuthing

i feel lost and confused
identity moratorium as my adolescent psych text wld say
but im 21..
i shldnt be in moratorium
i guess everyone goes through this stage once in awhile
doesnt mean i dun get to whine about it and wallow in self pity

i noe the root cause of this feeling
char noes
and my adolescent psych text noes
the key ingredient to idenity formation-->

hey, i cant keep crying over spilt milk
but i can keep wallowing in self pity over it

yes yes others elsewhere have it worse.
yes yes i have lots to be thankful for
yes yes im prolly over dramatizing my problems
i guess i still havent stepped out of being an adolescent
for a brief period last year i thought i had
and i was confident i found myself
i dun doubt that
but i wasnt able to hold on to it
esp when life throws so many curve balls at u
blink n u lose part of urself
wat now.

random thoughts:
touch rugby left me sunburnt,
injured,
feeling old and
w a realli muddy pair of boots
i dunwanna be capt of anething anemore
im a bitch and a wimp all in one flabby self
club tonight club friday night
too old to club haha
purple streaks again
meaning soon turning to moss
i dun wanna play tennis for ihg! i cant play not after only 3 trainings
2006 news creeping into 2007
gross people
indifference

-- tired and misunderstood --