this week has been cruel. Wait I meant it is cruel. Just horrible events after dreadful events. If shit had feelings this is what it would feel like. Hence, I feel lik shit
Ive come to realize that I've made horrible mistakes
and i wished it could all just go away
one big fucking nightmare
if I could even attempt to think about it, i would recount how I lost berrie. But the pain is too much.
keep berrie safe
keep berrie full
keep berrie happy
and give him a home too

-- missing berrie--

im fucking tired, sleep deprived, upset, worried and behind in studying for the exams
all of that made worse by the berrie saga

berrie barry berry bearbear all originated from strawberry-- which came his very very pink nose
this is like deja vu all over again.
the story of snowy.
just the thought of her makes me tear

the same stupid fucker complained again
seriously, if i could.. argh!!
whats the word.. castrate comes to mind.
make u feel what u put us berrie lovers through. what u put berrie and snowy through
self centered, self rightous egoistical asshole.
that line sounds familliar
oh ya, i scold u that before!

im fucking exhausted and all that just makes me even more irritated with him
imagine
berry had the perfect life in hall.
well loved and WELL FED by many
slept at night in rooms, affection on demand.
and because of ur ill informed complaint
he was plucked from this haven, put through hell for 2 days, scared, CASTRATED, no freedom.
imagine what he must be feeling

ok maybe im over reacting just a bit.
but im sleep deprived for 2 nights
and its not even solved.
wed spent looking for a vet.
too expensive
brought him all the way home but as expcted, cannot get along with my 2 horribly antisocial pets
morn brought to the vet
collected him
tried socializing again
its a pain realli.
but i dun have a choice do i?!
cuz of that idiot
money time effort spent and to no avail probably
how is he goin to get along with bobo and chacha
and if so.. how am i ever goin to bring myself to let him free outside.
he follows me like a shadow even in my own house
mews longingly with those marble eyes
i cried like mad just thinking about walking away from him

ok he is a stray
but im so fucking attached already
i hate it
i hate being like such a crybaby
i wished i could not care.
but he's adorable!
what do i do now..
if i spend anymore money on him my mum will flip.
but thank god the save berrie fund has got contributors from hall.
but still.
every waking moment now i spend worrying about him and his future.
i cant afford that.
exams are coming.
fuck

anybody wans to adopt this adorable kitty
all spayed with new kitty litter provided.
closest thing to a perfect pet
affectionate, gentle great with humans.
not so great with other pets.
beautiful handsome face and coat.
adopt him and be the luckiest human alive.